Can't Go Back Home lyrics

[Intro] One full year, the clock just spun, Thought all my battles here were won. But freedom's a lie, a cruel charade, A heavy price that must be paid. [Verse 1] My bags are packed, they're by the door, Been counting minutes on the floor. Thirty-six-five, each day I marked, Thought all the shadows had departed. They gave me badges, clean and bright, Said I was walking towards the light. I memorized each helpful phrase, Through all the long and hazy days. My old apartment, I can see it clear, Just how it was before the fear. But deep inside, a chilling doubt, Whispers a warning, loud and out. This sterile room, it feels like fate, I'm standing here at freedom's gate. But something's holding, hard and fast, Scared of the future, scared of the past. [Hook] A year is done, the calendar's read, But demons still dance inside my head. I wanna go back, but I can't go home, This fight ain't over, I'm still alone. [Verse 2] They say I'm stable, mind is clear, No more that trembling, desperate fear. My body's healthy, muscles strong, Guess I've been clean for way too long. I pictured coffee, quiet streets, Familiar faces, happy beats. But then a flash, a sudden pain, That old familiar, pouring rain. I touched my pocket, empty now, Remembered making that dark vow. One tiny slip, a single thought, Could lose the battle I have fought. My head is spinning, tired and numb, This broken feeling's overcome. The drug still holds a wicked sway, I just can't walk away today. [Hook] A year is done, the calendar's read, But demons still dance inside my head. I wanna go back, but I can't go home, This fight ain't over, I'm still alone. [Outro] Stuck in this room, nowhere to roam, I just can't bring myself to go home. This silent prison, I can't break free, It's still got a hold on me.