Ya Allah... Ampuni Diriku lyrics

Ya Allah...

Oh God...

Berapa kali seruan itu datang kepadaku?

How many times has that call come to me?

Berapa kali pintu ilmu-Mu Kau bukakan untukku?

How many times have You opened the door to Your knowledge for me?

Namun aku...

But I...

Aku justru berpaling,

I just turned away,

Seolah masih panjang waktu yang Kau titipkan.

As if the time You entrusted was still long.

Telah berkali-kali mereka mengajakku,

They have invited me many times,

Duduk bersimpuh menuntut ilmu-Mu,

To sit humbly seeking Your knowledge,

Mengenal firman, memahami petunjuk,

To know Your word, to understand guidance,

Menyelami makna hidup sebagai hamba-Mu.

To delve into the meaning of life as Your servant.

Namun langkahku selalu mencari alasan,

But my steps always found excuses,

Dunia kupeluk, ilmu-Mu kutinggalkan,

I embraced the world, I abandoned Your knowledge,

Panggilan kebaikan datang silih berganti,

Calls to goodness came repeatedly,

Tetapi hatiku lebih memilih pergi.

But my heart chose to leave instead.

Aku tak sadar betapa miskinnya diri,

I didn't realize how poor I was,

Berjalan dalam gelap, merasa mengerti,

Walking in darkness, feeling I understood,

Lidahku pandai menyebut nama-Mu,

My tongue is skilled at mentioning Your name,

Namun betapa jauh hatiku dari mengenal-Mu.

But how far my heart is from knowing You.

Kini kusadari...

Now I realize...

Bukan ilmu-Mu yang tak sampai,

It's not that Your knowledge didn't reach me,

Tetapi diriku yang sering menghindar,

But that I often avoided it,

Bukan pintu-Mu yang tertutup,

It's not that Your door was closed,

Tetapi aku yang enggan mengetuk.

But that I was reluctant to knock.

Ya Allah... ampuni diriku,

Oh God... forgive me,

Yang menyia-nyiakan panggilan ilmu-Mu,

Who wasted the call to Your knowledge,

Saat mereka mengajakku mendekat kepada-Mu,

When they invited me to draw closer to You,

Justru dunia yang lebih kupilih daripada-Mu.

I chose the world over You instead.

Betapa gelap seluruh ruh dan jiwaku,

How dark are all my spirit and soul,

Bertumpuk dosa menutupi kalbu,

Sins piled up covering my heart,

Aku takut... aku sungguh takut,

I'm scared... I'm truly scared,

Ajal menjemput sebelum sempat bertaubat.

Death will come before I have a chance to repent.

Jangan biarkan napas terakhirku,

Don't let my last breath,

Datang saat hatiku masih kelabu,

Come when my heart is still clouded,

Jangan biarkan umurku habis berlalu,

Don't let my life pass by,

Sebelum Kau sucikan jiwa dan ruhku.

Before You purify my soul and spirit.

Kelak di hadapan-Mu aku berdiri,

Later, I will stand before You,

Tiada satu pun yang dapat kusembunyi,

There will be nothing I can hide,

Setiap langkah, setiap kata yang terucap,

Every step, every word uttered,

Setiap kesempatan yang dahulu kulewatkan.

Every opportunity I once missed.

Apa jawabku saat semua dipertanyakan?

What will be my answer when everything is questioned?

Ke mana umur dan waktu kuhabiskan?

Where did I spend my life and time?

Saat ilmu memanggil, mengapa berpaling?

When knowledge called, why did I turn away?

Saat nasihat datang, mengapa membisu?

When advice came, why was I silent?

Dunia yang kukejar tak kubawa mati,

The world I chased, I won't take to death,

Kemegahan yang kupuja akan kutinggali,

The grandeur I adored, I will leave behind,

Namun dosa yang tak sempat kusesali,

But the sins I didn't get to regret,

Akankah menjadi beban di hadapan-Mu nanti?

Will they become a burden before You later?

Ya Rabb...

Oh Lord...

Aku bukan tak tahu kematian,

It's not that I don't know about death,

Tetapi seolah lupa akan kedatangannya,

But it's as if I forgot its coming,

Aku bukan tak pernah mendengar peringatan,

It's not that I never heard warnings,

Namun sering membiarkannya berlalu begitu saja.

But I often let them pass by.

Ya Allah... ampuni diriku,

Oh God... forgive me,

Yang terlalu lama jauh dari ilmu-Mu,

Who has been too long far from Your knowledge,

Aku ingin mengenal-Mu dengan sebenar-benarnya,

I want to truly know You,

Bukan hanya menyebut nama-Mu di bibir saja.

Not just mention Your name on my lips.

Betapa hina diriku di hadapan-Mu,

How lowly I am before You,

Tak punya apa-apa selain pemberian-Mu,

Having nothing but Your gifts,

Bahkan langkahku menuju majelis ilmu,

Even my steps towards the assembly of knowledge,

Takkan mampu

Will not be able to